I didn’t even know you.
I didn’t even know you yet I can’t help but feel like crying for you. You were so young. A year older than me, but a year that should have been the stepping stone for all your years to come.
It’s scary how unexpected life is.
How one decision, something as miniscule as deciding to eat breakfast or taking the time to tie your shoes or turning right instead of left.. can be the difference between life or death.
Nothing should ever be taken for granted, and that seemingly overused expression alone is already constantly, ironically, taken for granted.
We should see each day not as something not going bad, but as everything going good.
It leaves me in this type of stale silence, the type that mutes the sound of my heartbeat, the type that tries to forget the sound of crying. I can’t imagine what your family must be going through. To have to bury their son, brother, cousin, nephew. Too young. Too fucking young.
We’re reminded everyday about just how cruel things can get. People die everyday. Catastrophe everywhere.
It’s so selfish of us to only pay attention when it’s relevant to us. When it’s someone from our neighborhood, or people within our ethnicity, or someone you have mutual friends with. We only pay attention because we know that that could have easily been us. Because the possibility of death actually exists.
After living for 18 years, I still don’t understand how people can make such a big deal out of the littlest things when none of that even matters. I don’t understand how immaturity is still prevalent in social relationships and naivety is, if anything, growing and creating a false comfort in the form of the “present”. Everything you do, every person you meet, should be as significant and wholesome as you allow yourself to create. Life can go from black to white in an instant.
Nothing really matters unless you want it to matter.
I wish he didn’t have to die for me to feel the emotions dedicated to this rant. I wish nobody has to die for people to really start to appreciate all they are, all they have.